Wednesday, June 5, 2013

listen to your heart let your soul sing your song ... let your expression free .. express it threw your best talent .. thats when your best work is done.. you will feel so much weight lift off .. #freeurself

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Free myself is what I say  .. My brain on over drive again .. Thoughts rushing threw aint no time to copy down .. Its either you do or dont with me .. i dont like the thinking part .. i don't have no more time to mope around.. Feeling taken over my heart & soul made me hard to move .. it was like the demons got to me in & out my dreams.. Down talk ppl thoughts & self security has made me cold .. Time to move on get back to where I was at & that was even above me .. 
Im on a money making mission to much planing in my head for me not to pay attention to it ..
It's crazy how someone would defend someone from SOMETHING they didn't like that was done .. Yet they do the same to others , does it make SENSE .... 
Watch the fucking same treatment ppl gunna b getting .. Don't like me then it means you don't like yourself ... 
Life is the question , so many answers .. so many directions.. no lights .. some dead ends & long lanes like we'll never get there.. memories in the clouds as you move along .. speeding so fast feels like you driving in a convertible everything down.. COLD ..
I like to express myself freely not harmfully .. When I'm mad I speak a lil violently .. But when all is done I'm a realist talker & just like to let my opinion out a lot.. I can't day dream no more  ,its distracting.. I can't fantasize another day cuz I go nowhere.. I can't plan my future ahead cuz I have many talents dont kno which lane ill stay on .. I can only work on things day by day .. Rushing it will only make me 2nd guess regret or make a mess .. Time is precious have to do things with patients.. & the way i like it cuz thats what brings happiness.. 

Monday, June 3, 2013

You to be happier is the best revenge .... You know the saying you don't know what you got till its gone well I say you don't know what you lost till you can't get it no more # POW
Some Women are willing to do
Anything for some $ ... $ don't buy you respect or love boo... Some women are willing to be the side piece that's why it's so easy for DUDES DO WHAT THEY DO ...  Bitches be such haters they lower they self respect smh all for what ... #prideproblems
Pain brings progress, progress equals presence, presence gives u POWER... POWER MAKES YOU STRONGER ....
Most precious gift you can give is one you can't see & has no prices tag....
I need loyalty not phoneyalty ..
Lola LaChula Loca
let my writing touch your heart but my words read to your soul ..
I'm the type of person that rather be love rich then money rich .. Anyone could get money, but not everyone can get real love .... To many ppl know how to fake it or don't even know how to give it the right way... Are you willing to teach it to get it or not bother with it all together...  Do you want it demanding it your way or allow it to fall in place... Ppl cant just love you how you think is right ... Ppl go threw things or think different then you ... So I dont think demanding your way wont work ...Some ppl are willing to love you for you sweet loving caring respectfulness ... Rather then your nasty disrespectful aggressiveness  ... Be a good memory not he/she is just like the rest memory... Traumatizing ppl mentally makes a hate that don't just go away easy... Once thats out the door thats when you meet ugly .. 
I may come off to many as someone other then what they'll get ...
I don't need everyone to know he's mines .. I just need him to let everyone know he got someone .. Loyalty is a precious trait you don't find in many these days... 
I don't need to be wanted by the world ... But it means the world to be wanted by the one you want... 
Got my head in the clouds & I don't plan on coming down ... No one knows she's a lonely girl living in a hateful world .. 
I must have a friendly face for some reason everyone just smiles at me .. Or do I look that sad they feel lend a smile to me .. Lol 
I'm just a women & I'm a target ... Living my life how I want got everyone talking ... Judgement prevails but my mind won't get caught up in it... It's easy to talk but harder to live & go through shit no one can help nor pull you threw ... There for you owe no one an explanation on how you guide yourself in your life mission...Continue 2 be yourself.. Let them stay tripping..
If you let my love adore you everything else comes natural .. I'm not out to rob hearts , I'm out looking for the one who completes mines ... Broken hearts are common but finding your match is a challenge ....
When I'm out I feel ok .. Maybe cuz I'm distracted maybe cuz I don't wanna show my weakness pain  .. But when I'm home my heart breaks .. I don't want to start over .. I miss the old us .. But when I'm home alone thinking my heart breaks .. The memories sad bad happy fun,  I didn't & did enjoy them .. But when I think of what hurts & Bothers me alone in my home is where I'm at crying a stream of tears cuz my heart just keeps breaking more & more with every thought.. I can't fix it but I can't let others see my weakness pieces so they can enjoy my pain.. so I hold all the pieces in a ball in my palm & Hide my pain & fears & only let em go when I'm alone In my home & I fell comfortable to scream cry break down & let my heart break.. 
Every hurtful word said & I said nothing of.. everything done .. I asked why to try to understand .. Explanations made no SENSE ..but still i held on more trying to be stronger everyday. everything that hurt I held on to .. But everything i asked for is GONE from that time on.. With no proving no responds  .. I GOT WEAKER ..
Rather then him fight with anger I wanted him to fight with his heart show me im worth something & INSTEAD I CAPTURED ACTIONS INSTEAD OF WHAT HE SAID WAS WITH HIS HEART .. BUT HIS ANGER GOT THE BEST OF HIM & I LEARNED IT WAS ONLY LUST THAT LIVED IN THE INSIDE OF HIS HEART .. THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME STRONG ENOUGH TO MOVE ON ..
LOVE DONT LEAVE QUICK LUST DOES ..  LOVE DONT GET ANNOYED AT EVERY LIL THING LUST DOES .. LOVE DONT JUST GIVE UP IT TRYS HARDER BUT LUST DOES  .. SO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE  B4 YOU GIVE YOUR HEART UP FOR WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS LOVE BUT IT WAS LUST THERE..  ..